Staring at the sky today tried to think if the Mumbai sky was any different from My Delhi Sky. But didn’t find any difference, the skies were the same. But today my life isn’t the same. A smile just crossed my face thinking of all that I’ve experienced in the past two months, how my life has changed totally. I’ve heard people say my life took a 360 degree turn. I honestly never understood this line, but today I know. From Delhi to Mumbai, from living in the posh south Delhi C. R. Park to living in the suburbs of Mumbai in a place called Kalyan,from traveling for just 20 minutes for work to traveling 5 hours in the day, from driving my own car to traveling in trains, from the comfort and security of my own vehicle to the bruises and push-pull methodology of the trains, from jhal muri, ghugi to sukha bhel and vada pav, from friends to random strangers. Life has really taken 360 degrees turn.From being the elder daughter to the sole bread earner and the head of the family. Never thought I would grow up so fast in just two months.
November which was meant to be one of the stepping stones for my life became a month
which well gave the most devastating news for life, My Dad Having CANCER. Honestly
I never thought I’ll ever write about this but today when I pen down my pain and
struggle I just realized that there might be many more like me struggling in a life which is totally black. From living a life of sunshine, pleasures and delight to a life which is so uncertain and impossible that sometimes I really think it’s just a bad dream and soon it would be over. But well its life and it always takes its own course. You just have to flow in its waves.
In this year where everyone is making resolutions and aiming for new goals, aspiring
for new hopes and looking forward for a better life. I too like others thought of making some but then realized that today life is not allowing me to dream. Today life is making me take the biggest challenge that it could offer. Today when I look at the unknown sky, I know it’s not different but I also know that it’s not mine. In an unknown city with strangers I am fighting the biggest battle of my life. Yes, I do become hopeless once in a while; yes I do feel that I won’t be able to do this anymore. But then again I’ve fought this for so long; I know I can win this.
But the doubts, yes the uncertainties everything lies around. Will there be light again, will I be able to win this battle.......
